Tonight marked my official yoga teaching debut. My fall class was cancelled because they didn’t advertise it in time, but tonight, my class was packed with 14 preggos. I’ve never been to a prenatal yoga class with more than 4 students, so I could not believe the response! Troy took a picture of me with all my gear before I left as if it were the first day of school.
I have to admit that I was SO nervous to be in charge. This class has consumed almost every thought I’ve had for the last week. I’ve laid awake at night going through worst-case scenarios and considering every possible factor that I could mess up. I’ve felt sick to my stomach. I’ve stressed over the music selections, the perfect way to sequence the postures, the difficulty level, the memorization of the flow, and the way my students would perceive me. I’ve wondered what in the world motivated me to take this job in the first place. I’ve even had nightmares about my music not working and having to kick students out of class for talking too much. Troy has given me countless pep talks.
Well, I made it through. Was it perfect? No. But, was it a disaster? No. I have been trying to tell myself all day that I’m not going to be a master teacher at first, and that I offer only what I have to offer. I should be more worried about my students than if they like me, if I am doing everything right, if my poses are perfect, and if my words are fluid. I am overall very pleased with how the class went. The timing worked out, I remembered to do each pose on both the right and left sides, and though just barrelling through was my main objective, it seemed like everyone was following along. I know that everything has to have a beginning, and hopefully this will be the start of a journey that I will enjoy and be calm and confident about in the future. I am glad to be moving on with my life and putting this first class behind me. I should probably start preparing for our baby that is due in 5.5 weeks that I have done absolutely nothing for! I hope he doesn’t come early because my yoga class lasts 6 weeks…awesome timing, right?