It’s been a month since you joined our family. A whole month of watching you grow and change. I had forgotten what it was like having a newborn. The jerky movements, the startled cries, the rooting mouth. The first month seems to go by the quickest. Maybe it’s because of the lack of sleep and constant nursing. The days start to run together. One day you have a brand new babe and next you have a one month old. A month of loving on you and falling in love with you has come and gone. Everyone around here is completely smitten with you baby boy.
You like to eat. A lot. I’ve watched your cheeks grow plumper and plumper the last four weeks. You are a great sleeper so far. In fact, you sleep the best during the chaos of your older brothers running around and making all sorts of ruckus. You like to be swaddled tightly at night. But you are very strong and many nights you maneuver your little arms out of the swaddle.
My favorite way to hold you is curled up under my neck.
We’ve been co-sleeping ever since we brought you home from the hospital. I didn’t co-sleep much with your brothers because I was scared of the transition. This time I don’t really care. You love to cuddle with me and I love to cuddle with you. I know how soon you will grow out of being a newborn and sleep on your own, so for now I just can’t bear to be apart from you. Plus, it makes nighttime feedings so much easier. If we can both get a couple extra hours of sleep then it’s fine with me.
You are my first baby to take a pacifier. It is incredibly convenient to satisfy you by pushing that binky in your mouth when I am trying to take care of the other boys. You also make a great shopping and errand running and dropping off and picking up your brothers partner. You are such a calm baby.
I can’t bear to put you down while I work in the evenings, so I situate you on my lap, in front of my laptop.
I’m not the only one who adores you. Your brothers are obsessed too.
These next months are going to fly by. I know they will but I still find myself saying “I can’t believe it’s already been a month.” Your movements will get less jerky. You will start to smile and coo and get into everything. You will grow and change every day and I am so glad that I will be here to witness it. I wish you could understand the love that so many people have for you already. You have stolen hearts, including mine, and you don’t even know it yet.
I love you baby boy.