Mother’s Day

As a mother, I experience the rawest of emotions. I struggle and ache and worry and hurt. I am frustrated and exasperated and exhausted. I have a tattered body and frazzled mind and tired spirit. But because I am a mother, I also experience moments deep, deep love that make…

My Arms Will Never Hold Enough Babies

October 21, 2014 in Finn, Motherhood - 2 Comments

I’m sure I sound like a broken record with all of my recent gushing about the newborn baby phase. But here’s the thing. I think most moms have a stage of motherhood that really clicks for them. Some can’t get enough of preschoolers. Others adore the elementary years. And some…

The Babymoon is Over

October 2, 2014 in Blakeisms, Finn, Motherhood, Troy - No Comments

Troy had the last two weeks off work for paternity leave. It was, in a word, divine. Maybe it wasn’t quite as heavenly as when we shipped the older two boys off to their grandparents’ house for ten days when newborn baby #3 entered our world. But since school made…

Keep Me Awake

September 28, 2014 in Finn, Motherhood, Photography, Quotes - 2 Comments

These lyrics kept running through my mind the other night as Finn was sleeping soundly in my arms; his tiny chest rising and falling, his cool breath on my neck, his curled up legs snug against me. I felt a sense of urgency to capture this exact moment in time….

Babies Don’t Keep

September 23, 2014 in Fears, Finn, Motherhood - 1 Comment

Soaking up a newborn baby is my favorite thing in the entire world. Especially when it’s my newborn baby. I know not everyone feels the same way about new babies. My husband is one of them. He would much rather interact with a child than hold a curled up lump…

Thoughts on Perspective

November 12, 2013 in Motherhood, Pregnancy, Quotes - 1 Comment

  A question I often get asked now that I have three children is, “How is it having three?” I always respond that the transition from two to three has by far been the easiest. Maybe it’s because Crew is the most low-maintenance baby on the planet. Or maybe I’m…

I am His and He is Mine

May 9, 2013 in Crew, Motherhood, Pregnancy - 4 Comments

I have to admit that I was really worried about bonding with this baby. I had such a grueling, emotional pregnancy that left me numb towards having any sort of connection with the life growing within me. But something transformed when I held that perfect fresh-from-heaven newborn baby close to…

This is Heaven

April 25, 2013 in Crew, Motherhood - 6 Comments

The day after we brought Crew home from the hospital, Troy sent the older boys to their grandparents’ house for ten days. I should probably say that I miss them, but in reality, it has been heaven. No messes to clean up, meals to prepare, arguments to break up, noses…